It's not like she intends to butt heads with the new guy; after all, she remembers what it was like, being the new person. The 118 was insanely kind to her, especially after having a rough time in training, and she should want to pass on that warmth and sense of family. She wants to. It's just -
She knows what her reputation is. It started all the way back in training, because she'd never been able to keep her legs shut until Bobby nearly fired her and she fucked a department therapist. She still can't, really, but fear of screwing up the one good thing she has going for her has at least kept her fuck-ups away from her job since then. Still, she did some serious damage to how people see her, and she's had to turn down a few assholes who heard she was easy and weren't thrilled by her new policy. And that's ignoring the fact that firefighting is still very much a men's club and she gets looked down on all the time for not being one of the guys. Sue her if she's a little cautious around new people.
Also, he's extremely hot, and if it weren't for that policy, then she knows she'd definitely sleep with him if he asked. That makes it awkward, too.
She's not a bitch to him or anything, but she's not her usual friendly golden retriever self towards him. Bobby even calls her on it, pulls her aside at one point to ask if there's a problem. When she admits that there isn't, or if there is then it's all her, he asks her to put a bit more effort into being friendly because Eddie's a damn good firefighter and potentially very good backup for some of the more reckless shit Buck tends to pull. (Okay, he didn't phrase that last part quite that way, but that's the message she receives.)
So she jumps into more reckless bullshit with Eddie in the form of removing a live grenade from a guy's leg. It's terrifying and exhilarating and Eddie's calmness under pressure at least reassures her that Bobby probably made the right call in bringing him to the 118, and he's probably not an asshole. They have kind of a moment afterwards where she's pretty sure they've both just agreed to give some kind of professional partnership a try, but she wants to make sure the lines of communication stay open so when they get back to the station, she brings them both a plate of Bobby's leftovers.
"I don't know what you like, but anything Bobby makes is good, so..."
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She knows what her reputation is. It started all the way back in training, because she'd never been able to keep her legs shut until Bobby nearly fired her and she fucked a department therapist. She still can't, really, but fear of screwing up the one good thing she has going for her has at least kept her fuck-ups away from her job since then. Still, she did some serious damage to how people see her, and she's had to turn down a few assholes who heard she was easy and weren't thrilled by her new policy. And that's ignoring the fact that firefighting is still very much a men's club and she gets looked down on all the time for not being one of the guys. Sue her if she's a little cautious around new people.
Also, he's extremely hot, and if it weren't for that policy, then she knows she'd definitely sleep with him if he asked. That makes it awkward, too.
She's not a bitch to him or anything, but she's not her usual friendly golden retriever self towards him. Bobby even calls her on it, pulls her aside at one point to ask if there's a problem. When she admits that there isn't, or if there is then it's all her, he asks her to put a bit more effort into being friendly because Eddie's a damn good firefighter and potentially very good backup for some of the more reckless shit Buck tends to pull. (Okay, he didn't phrase that last part quite that way, but that's the message she receives.)
So she jumps into more reckless bullshit with Eddie in the form of removing a live grenade from a guy's leg. It's terrifying and exhilarating and Eddie's calmness under pressure at least reassures her that Bobby probably made the right call in bringing him to the 118, and he's probably not an asshole. They have kind of a moment afterwards where she's pretty sure they've both just agreed to give some kind of professional partnership a try, but she wants to make sure the lines of communication stay open so when they get back to the station, she brings them both a plate of Bobby's leftovers.
"I don't know what you like, but anything Bobby makes is good, so..."