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Yeah. Love you, see you soon.

[As predicted (and low-key forced to happen), Bobby's gone by the time Christopher and Eddie arrive. Buck's set up on the couch with a blanket, still feeling a little fuzzy from the meds but considerably more alert since she accidentally caused two (2) of the most important men in her life to have mini-panic attacks. At least she didn't give Christopher one as well and make it three-for-three.

She greets Chris with a smile and listens to his brief summary of their outing and the movie they saw before he heads to his room to play video games. Once he's out of the room, she scoots around on the couch to make room for Eddie.]

Hey.

( the remnants of the mini panic attack have faded by the time they get home. eddie's just left with a little bit of an adrenaline crash and a lot to think about. he listens with a small smile as chris talks about their afternoon, but once he's in his room, eddie is moving to the couch with all speed. he wants to hold his girlfriend. )

Hey. ( he tucks himself up behind her so he can rest against the arm of the couch, legs running the length of it, and pull buck back to rest on his chest. ) So that was an adventure.

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[She’s pretty happy to snuggle into him, feel his arms around her. The misunderstanding was pretty rough on both of them, even if it was objectively her fault. Speaking of which - ] I really am sorry.

Hey, hey... ( he rubs a hand up and down her back. ) You've got nothing to be sorry for, Buck. Really.

( but he knows her and he knows that just saying that isn't reassurance enough. he kisses the top of her head before continuing. )

You didn't do it on purpose. And I was fine in less than five minutes.

Yeah, but you shouldn't have had to be not fine at all. It was such a stupid mix-up, and I just made it worse when I was trying to stop you from hearing whatever Bobby sent you without context.

[And now she's whining about herself instead of checking on how he feels. He's not supposed to be comforting her right now.] How are you?

I'm good. ( and he honestly is, now. ) I might mention this to Frank at some point, just because it caught me by surprise, but I'm good.

( and it's the kind of mistake he doesn't expect will happen ever again, so he's not even sure he needs to bring it up with frank. he probably will, just because he gets the feeling that buck will frown at him if he doesn't. but he doesn't see this as a big thing. )

You know it wasn't-- ( he pauses. huffs quietly and starts again. ) It didn't have anything to do with the idea of you being pregnant. You know that, right?

[She scrunches up her face a bit as she tilts her head to look up at him, because it's not like. Well.] Well, no one was freaking out about the idea of me not being pregnant. [So in other words, no. She's not sure what he's trying to tell her.]

( he lets his voice go soft and quiet. ) I want to have kids with you. When we're ready.

( they've talked about it briefly before in the same nebulous way they've talked about other aspects of their future together. she knows he's not just open to having more kids but hoping it happens at some point. )

It was the surprise combined with the Bobby of it all. ( that last part was something he hadn't figured out until he was in the car, driving home. having his girlfriend's father, someone he sees as a mentor and father figure sometimes, freak out about it brought him right back to age eighteen and having to tell his dad shannon was pregnant. ) I know he wouldn't be pissed if you were pregnant and that's not what his reaction was. But knowing that he stormed over here and you couldn't get rid of him or talk to me about what was going on...

( it triggered some things. )

Oh.

[Something warm blooms in her chest at the affirmation that he does want kids still, with her. Of course she knew that in general, because they'd talked about the possibility to make sure they were on the same page about things. But that was just making sure they were on the same page, not anything too real or immediate. She knows that a pregnancy scare can sometimes make a general opinion on something feel like an all-too-real reality, and not everyone feels the same way they thought they would afterwards. It's nice to hear that he still feels the same way.

She groans a little at the reminder of the Bobby of it all.] Yeah. He probably wouldn't have reacted like that, either, except he knew I was on pain meds, and I stopped responding to him because I fell asleep, which made him think something was really wrong. It was just terrible timing all around.

Yeah, I would've been pretty pissed to if the hospital put you on narcotics and you were actually pregnant. ( that is a lawsuit waiting to happen.

eddie rubs at her shoulder and gives it a small squeeze. ) Outside of all the chaos, how are you feeling?

Not too bad now, I guess.

[Tired, again, once all the excitement wore off, but she didn't want to fall asleep again before Eddie got back. Especially since the last time she took a nap was kin of terrifying interrupted.] The good news from the hospital is that my wrist looks good. Fracture's healing like it's supposed to.

That's good. ( he didn't really expect anything different because buck is generally good at not pushing herself too too far when recovering because that inevitably means more time recovering. but it's good to hear. ) Won't be long until you're back out in the field.

( and now that he says that, with the context of them having touched on the whole kids thing again, he can't help but wonder... )

If... we do have a kid. Are you gonna be okay taking time off work?

I think so.

[She absently runs her thumb along the edge of the cast on her broken wrist.] I can't promise I wouldn't feel kinda antsy, but - what usually drives me crazy about being out of work is feeling like there's something I should be doing. I think mayb growing a whole new person in my body would be doing enough?

That's probably something you should talk to Dr. Copeland about. ( but, also-- ) If it's not, we can always find things for you to do. Things that don't involve risking your life.

( eddie knows what the drive to be useful feels like, and he knows that therapy will help but won't completely eliminate that feeling. not without years worth of work, anyway. so coping mechanisms it is. )

[She huffs out a breath.] Probably. [Why does everything have to be something you need to unpack in therapy? Can a woman not simply feel like she has to earn her right to existence by being useful? Can she not just be scared that her found family of choice won't have a place for her anymore if she's not right there working with them day after day?]

Things like what?

I don't know. Maybe you volunteer. Maybe there's a position at the academy you can take for a while. ( he shrugs. ) We'll figure something out.

You think Bobby really wants me influencing the next generation of firefighters?

[It’s actually not a bad idea, so long as no one’s concerned Buck will pass on her tendency to ignore orders when they go against her instincts.]

Hell yeah. Why wouldn't he?

( sure, buck may have a reckless streak sometimes, but it's getting better the older she gets. and she's a damn good firefighter. the next generation could learn a lot from her. besides-- )

Didn't he have you helping with Ravi when he was a probie?

So I don’t infect them all with my insubordination? And I kind of took on training Ravi myself.

[Because she thought they might need a replacement for her.]

You're not actually that insubordinate. You just think you are.

( he's aware this sounds like a wild thing to say, but it's also the truth. )

[She raises her eyebrows as she turns to look at him.] Bobby has a whole speech for when I disobey his orders.

Okay, one, half the reason he lectures you like that is because he worries about ( you. this isn't really relevant to his point but is worth saying. ) Two, you only really disobey orders in certain situations.

[She's not sure why she's thinking about the lecture Bobby gave her when there was a sniper after the LAFD now.

Well. Maybe she does. Because it was different. Because his lectures haven't felt the same since. Because not even an hour ago, Bobby had showed up at her door, terrified that something was incredibly wrong because he knows Buck wouldn't mix narcotics and pregnancy on purpose otherwise.]

Not always.

( that--doesn't sound good. and honestly doesn't sound like what he knows of bobby and buck, so he has to ask: ) What do you mean?

I don't know. Just - [She presses a palm against her forehead, just for the pressure to focus on. Is this even something she wants to talk about right now? They've already had one harrowing conversation.] I don't know.

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